11th Weigh In

I officially had my first gain.  After going 10 weeks and losing, I have gained.  Not a good day.  I shouldn't be surprised though. I had a rough week.  I had a Davannis calzone one night (did you know those were 26 points???  Me neither, until I had eaten it) I had Mexican one day, and Indian food two days.  I totally fell off the wagon.

Weight lost/gained. Gained .2 pounds
Total weight loss: 21.2

Boooooooooooo. Onto doing better in the week to come!

10th Weigh In

For the past few weigh ins, I've had a bad feeling going into it.  This week, I had a really bad feeling going into it.  My weekend was undisciplined crap.  Seriously.  I felt bad.  Guilty.  And today when I put my size 8's on (hey, at least they weren't my size 10's) they felt a little snug around the belly.

So, of course, I was very surprised to find out that I lost a decent amount of weight this week.  Yes, I am happy with this week's weight loss!

Weight Lost This Week:  2.2 Pounds
Current Weight: 152
Current BMI: 22.4
Total Weight Lost: 21.4

Total pounds to get to goal weight = 7

I honestly don't know how I lost 2.2 pounds this week.  I was very active, and didn't miss even one day of exercise, so I know that helped.  And I would say 4 or 5 days out of the 7 day week, I was pretty darn good.  But the 2 days I was bad, I was really bad.

I can't believe I've lost over 20 pounds.  This weekend, my husband and I were chatting, and he asked me if I am lying about how badly I still feel about myself.  And you know, I'm not lying, or pretending.  I don't see myself much differently at 20 pounds less.  I was expecting the change to look more drastic.  Sure, I feel a bit thinner, but I still have some things to work on on the inside.

7 pounds to go!!!

NOT a Model Client

Every week, I love reading the success stories on Weight Watchers.  It keeps me motivated to keep going with the plan.  I have in common with these people that we are losing weight.  I've lost almost 20 pounds, these people are success stories because they shed the weight.  But that is where our things in common end.  They lost weight and kept it off because they made drastic changes.  Me. . . I feel like I am constantly cheating the plan.

My weigh ins are every Tuesday.  After weigh in, I try to be good and not go over my allowed points.  Then Wednesday I try to be good, as well as Thursday.  Friday, I am good until the point that I get home from work, and then I am bad.  I open up the bottle of wine, and have too many classes, I order my favorite Indian takeout and eat a HUGE piece of the most delicious naan I've ever had.  I wake up Saturday, feeling guilty and I go for a nice walk.  I eat well all day, until dinner time comes around. My husband and I aren't big cookers, and on the weekends we like to indulge, so we usually do takeout again, and I may have a glass of wine again (or 3-4).  Sunday I become painfully aware that I have a weigh in in 2 short days.  So Sunday, I get in my 30 minutes of cardio, and I purposely try to stay until my allotted 29 points for the day, because I know I must have went severely over on Friday and Saturday.  (Although I tend to slack off from tracking on these days)  Yesterday for example, I only ate 23 points.  29 is supposedly the lowest we are ever supposed to go.  I know this, but I'm in catch up mode.  I wake up hungry on Monday, but know that if I want to see results on the scale the VERY next day, that I should probably stay below points on Monday as well.  So today for example, I'm going to try to stay at least 5 points under.  And then weigh in on Tuesday, and the cycle starts again.

I am happy with my results, but I do realize that maintenance will be hard if I keep this up.  I want to have a PERFECT week.  A week where I stick to my 29 points daily, without ever going over.  A week where I don't have to come in under points on a couple days because I was so severely over the day before. 

Tuesdays are an exciting and anxiety filled day all in one.  I am so anxious to find out my weight, but so nervous that the number won't be favorable because afterall, how many points ARE in a bottle of white wine?

I am less than 10 pounds from my goal weight. . . a weight I haven't seen on the scale in over 10 years.  I must be better.  I MUST accomplish this goal.  And I probably should quit with my wine. 

9th Weigh In

Another weigh in today.  I deinitely felt better this week than I did last week.  Last week was my worst eating week since joining the program, so this week, I stepped it up a bit.  I did very well during the weekdays, and unfortunately on the weekends I splurged a bit.  I ate Indian food (with beer and wine) on Friday.  Saturday I was CRAVING pizza and ordered a delicious pepperoni, sausage, and onion pizza and ate two large slices (with beer).  I tried to work out a lot though.  Saturday after my pizza I even went on my second workout of the day to try to make up for my habits. 

Overall, I am pleased with this week.  I know that if I stuck to the plan perfectly all 7 days of the week, it would be even better, but I don't know if I'm ready to commit to that.  I want my takeout and alcohol on the weekends.  I'm just not ready to part.

Weight Lost This Week:  1.2 Pounds
Current Weight: 154.2
Current BMI: 22.8
Total Weight Lost: 19.2

Total pounds to get to goal weight = 9.2

I am finally at less than 10 pounds to goal weight.  When I first started the program, I weighed 173.4, and I wanted my goal weight to be 140.  After I had been on the program for a few weeks, I decided that perhaps 140 was too ambitious.  I mean, that would be a total weight loss of 33.4.  Do I need to lose that much weight?  After a couple weeks on the program, I was in a healthy BMI range. What if I stopped now?  Would I be happy at my current weight?  I mean, 154.4 isn't bad, right?

Sometimes, I just don't know what I really want.  I am now comfortably fitting into size 8's.  I haven't measured inches, but I know I've lost some, especially in my butt, legs, and arms.  And perhaps around my waist as well.  Yet, I still want to be thinner.  I feel like I'm wavering a little bit.  I mean, what if I reach 145. What if I look in the mirror and still don't like what I see?  Than perhaps this isn't about my weight at all. 

Okay, I'm babbling.  For now, my goals are to weight 145 pounds and fit into a size 6.  My goal is to never see anything 150 or higher on the scale, ever again.  So, here I go!!! 

Another 9.2 pounds to go!!!

Progress

I've enjoyed taking pictures at the beginning of each month.  I'm a very visual person, and I knew that it would provide extra motivation to me if I could actually see the results of weight loss.

Here I am, starting out in early July, at 173.4 pounds.

Here I am at the beginning of the 2nd month, 4 weeks later, and about 8 pounds thinner.

And here I am, yesterday, 18 pounds thinner, and 8 weeks later.

I guess if I had to see a difference, I would say I'm less bulky, especially up top.  I can also see a collarbone, and perhaps my legs are a bit thinner.  It's amazing though, I thought 18 pounds would be more obvious.  I definitely see a difference, but not as large of a difference as I thought 18 pounds would look like. 

I'm noticing that I'm ready for smaller pants.  I wear corporate attire to my job, and my current size 10's look frumpy.  I've lost weight in my waist, which makes my pants hang more, and now they are all too long.  I've also lost some weight in my butt and my pants make it look like I have saggy butt.  Not a good look!  So, perhaps after I lose a few more pounds, I'll go searching for new pants. 

8th Weigh In

Whew!

This weigh in could have been deadly.  I had an awful weekend food wise.  I indulged.  A lot.  But I still lost weight! Sure, it's the lowest amount I've lost in a week, but I'll take it.  Not only that, but I have the renewed energy to have my best eating week yet!

Weight Lost This Week:  .8 Pounds
Current Weight: 155.4
Current BMI: 22.9
Total Weight Lost: 18 pounds

Tomorrow I am hoping to post my 8 week picture.  Life has been a bit crazy (aka stressful) lately, so I didn't get around to taking one, but hope to tonight. 

I Fell Off. . . Hard

The wagon that is.

I knew this weekend would be tough.  It was Labor Day weekend, which meant a weekend at the cabin, and I knew it would be hard to stay on track.  I had no internet access which meant I couldn't look up points values, I had a stressful life situation happen right before the weekend away that made me not be able to prepare my Smart Ones meals and snacks for the weekend, and all of this led to a bit of a disaster.

Let's see, I ate Sugar Babies, drank too much alcohol, had the most delicious chocolate brownies imaginable, had too many helpings of bread, had a few mini candy bars, oh, and to top it off, I had a regular (non diet) delicious 20 oz Mt. Dew.

So, today is weigh in day, and I'm expecting to be up a pound.  I'm very disappointed naturally.  Today marks 8 weeks since on Weight Watchers, and ever week, I've managed to lose some weight.  Whether it was a pound or three pounds, I've lost. 

But then this weekend happened.  I feel discouraged, but I also know that I need to simply get back on track. . . starting NOW.  I need to not be disappointed when I see what the scale reveals today, and instead, I need to be strict with my healthy eating all week long, so next week I can see the scale move down once again.

I'll update today's weight later on, as I get weighed in at 12:30pm CST.